mariposa

explosions in the sky

i like em a lot, reminds me of that movie i saw yesterday, aura, the music kinda goes with the movie… too bad the pniche gringo needs 15 puntos mas for his escape to the muthaland (NZ), oh well, we’ll lose a great one but NZ will gain a great son, ciao chilitos, xo

its been awhile…

i just had an ecg & chest xray, in case i’m dying of a heart attack:( since i’ve been experiencing severe chest pains since yesterday but alas i fear it is only asthma, bummer… the good news is my ex has been updatin his blog so now i get the real scoop!! well, unless he wrote the juicy stuff in german:[ schiesse!! ok, I’m out bc me no feel very goodlooking… is anyone out there????

4 de julio

I can’t believe it sort of worked out yesterday. Yes it rained like crazy, yup I had no real plans, yup my mum is still sick as a dog, & it was cold as all hec, but somehow it all came 2gether & rite in time!! Can it be that in this sea of madness that is my life this year of non-stop endless rock bottoms, a day shone thru w/all things rite? Wow, it mus b a miracle:) & I’m luvin it

salmonella?

Salmonella in veggie booty, holy crapola. Thank goodness I don’t eat that stuff… My mum had that c.dificil bacteria & she was almost a goner…almost, it was the closest I’ve come to actually facin death, other than my random passin suicidal thoughts, hmmmm, not many, if any. (Shout out to NZ rappers:) I am now officially my mother’s keeper, not what I had planned for my 32nd year of life:( I’m tired & gettin old. I see the physical deterioration & it hurts. My ex is nutty, hehe, but he makes me laf:) nite all, hope life is even better tomorrow. The weather is incredibulocity!! Wow, tanks for the perfect summer 07!

trouble: u noe im no good

nuthin new,

the sky is still blu,

cant find new shooz,

2 my stomach i must be tru…

wen will things seem real,

sumtimes i dont feel,

the past is unreal,

too bad its all like a bad meal…

hmmmm

Today I feel a wind of change coming. It’s sort of too peaceful, not arguing w/my mum, work is just there, I’m feeling ok, not too moody or down, though I just opened up an envelope from my HI co. about depression, r they totally tryin 2 tell me sumthin? Maybe last summer:( skin cancer bites, but somehow I can put it out of my mind for now… The only weird quote of the day was jus now w/my ex, he said “I’m letting you go”, which I thought meant an hasta luego but maybe he meant an hasta nunca? I guess I’ll never know for sure, until tomorrow at least. He’ll never read this anyway, even tho he always tells me to read his. I guess I really don’t have much to say anyway, so goodnite world, I’m lettin u go…for now that is, c-ya!